i am suppose to be freaking out by now knowing that tomorrow i'll be having my short case exam where i'll be in a nerve wrecking, cold-sweat-inducing, heart-popping situation when pound by tons of questions that i-can-only-hope-i-could-answer-questions by the lecturer instead here i am sitting here in front of my laptop with books on my lap typing this post and trying hard to scoop out the perfect kiwi balls.
T__________________________________________T
oh lady luck do be by my side tomorrow, pretty please?
what i should be doing
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Posted by CoNnie at 10:44 PM 2 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Crazy talk, EXAM
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
final 3 weeks for O&G.
Gonna be busy, busy, busy.
but YAY!
wait maybe i should postpone the celebration AFTER the short case exam.
exam. UGH!
Posted by CoNnie at 10:13 PM 1 Diagnosis Made
Labels: EXAM
puffy eyes
Thursday, December 16, 2010
there is a reason why i should not watch any dog related movie. it's my soft spot.
watch Hachiko and halfway through it i was like T_________T nonstop and..... (i don't know if you know the story already but imma do this anyway just to be safe)
*****SPOILER ALERT******
Richard Gere haven't died yet.
*****SPOILER END*****
and at the beginning i was like so sure that i wouldn't cry but then Hachiko was so loyal and so cute and, and, and i suddenly miss my dogs at home too and cried wtf. MAJOR FAIL.
and now my eyes looks like buns O.O
Posted by CoNnie at 8:33 PM 1 Diagnosis Made
Labels: emo me, When randomness attack
funky story.
Monday, December 13, 2010
curious how the human mind works. you do so many things in a day and by the end of the day you just remember one thing vividly. One.
armpit.
yes, armpit. well armpit smells actually. does anyone notice how the tutorial room smells bit funky lately? i think i commented about the room newly acquired musky smell a bit too loudly today when everyone in the room give me their most convincing T_____________T face before bursting into laughter.
seriously, nobody notice?
damn it. i think i'm losing my mind.
le sigh.
Posted by CoNnie at 9:32 PM 0 Diagnosis Made
Labels: When randomness attack
commercial break
Thursday, December 9, 2010
and go catch a laptop with your ass cheeks. wtf. Butt but seriously people talk about challenging your body.
Bet he walks funny for few days after pulling this stunts. LMAO.
Posted by CoNnie at 7:15 PM 2 Diagnosis Made
Labels: When randomness attack
my 24hours
you it when medical school took over your life when 22hours of your day spent either, at the ward, OT, class, teachings, studying or dreaming about studying. 1hour fulfilling normal human physiological needs and the other hour being to tired to function.
i'm typing out this post cause i am contemplating whether i should continue my reading or just screw it and go to sleep.
don't think i can't feel your T_______T face right about now.
one should never felt guilty when they choose sleeping over studying. that is just wrong.
SCREW THIS I"M GOING TO BED.
.
.
.
.
.
RIGHT AFTER I FINISH THIS CHAPTER.
Posted by CoNnie at 12:21 AM 0 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Crazy talk, When randomness attack
my rock.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
i always love to go shopping during the festive season the mall decoration is always so amazing especially during christmas. went out planning to watch narnia today but damn ticket sold out like hot cakes so ended up shopping (again, sigh i know T___T) instead.
eh, but wait. what i'm-a-20-something-so-i-don't-go-and-run-towards-the-cute-huggable-teddy?
look what the bf gave me.
<3.
suffice to say i am a happy
Posted by CoNnie at 12:42 AM 4 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Connie the Hopeless Romantic, Happy me, Pictorial
mentally unstable
Friday, December 3, 2010
do you ever had that moment in life that you just don't feel like talking. nothing at all? random innocent people who didn't sense your sudden mood swing did the most slightest things that happen to irritates you and like a balloon you blew up on them.
poor thing don't even know what's going on.
this is just a bad bad week i guess. probably the stress is just too overwhelming or maybe i'm just pms-ing. at this point i just can't differentiate them anymore as i am way pass my mental capability to think straight.
i'm just glad that it is finally weekend.
Posted by CoNnie at 6:19 PM 1 Diagnosis Made
Labels: emo me
surviving on call
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
with the midwifes specifically.
read ahead and know your stuff prior assisting in the labour room. if you are thaaaatt stupid (quoting one of the midwife here) observed buttload of labour until you grow an extra set of vagina.Step 2:
as if growing an extra set of genital is enough, you need to develop thick skin as well. being scolded, tease and humiliated in front of your fellow friends, housemans, registrars, patients and their kins by the midwifes should be like a second nature to you. midwifes yap, filter out the important points mute out the unnecessary details, look indifferent, occasionally nod and leave.Step 3:
show no emotion *refer to step 2*. breaking down is a waste of energy. being on call is not just the matter of surviving the 12hours but also surviving the consecutive 8-5 the next day. besides, tears are like midwifes magnet. it increases the midwifes affinity towards you. translation=BAD. however if crying is inevitable, do it privately.Step 4:
learn to accept your mistake and the midwifes' mistake as yours as well. cause in their mind you're always wrong. being indifferent is the key here. besides, patient's safety is still the priority. Hence, pointing out the midwifes obvious mistake is necessary despite the risk of getting scolded. so, INDIFFERENT.I might have gone loopy from all the mental tortures and the physical exhaustion from this posting but call me crazy or a masochist to be exact, those *bleeping* midwifes is the ones that got me thinking if this is the profession that I wanted to do for the rest of my life and I never felt so sure of myself until last night.
But I probably wont pursue Obs n Gyn as my field though. Cause hey I might be a masochist but I'm not thaaaaattt stupid.
Posted by CoNnie at 11:36 PM 3 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Busy me, Crazy talk, emo me
teenage dream.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
i love how they switch the song into a male perspective and made it as though it is the sweetest love story ever!
but i think everything sounds more romantic with a piano, no?
lets just say this song will be on repeat for the rest of the night.
Posted by CoNnie at 9:55 PM 0 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Connie the Hopeless Romantic
why everyday should be mother's day
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
On call was not so bad after all! Okay it is probably because after observing two delivery, normal and twin vaginal delivery I decided to went home and manage to sneak in 4hours of sleep before heading to ward again at 7am in an effort to conserve energy for this morning grand ward round that lasted almost 5hours ftw!!!!!11 *pat back for quick thinking*
Posted by CoNnie at 1:06 AM 0 Diagnosis Made
robotic
Saturday, November 20, 2010
will be going for my first on call tomorrow night and i am all nervous and excited over the whole thing. preparing a checklist of what to do during the whole 7pm to 7am.
is it crazy that i need to have on call and cover my assigned bed on a SUNDAY and not to mention i still have ward round at 8am the next morning, which goes on until forever noon AND still have to prepare another case for another round with the specialist at 2.30pm???!!!!!111
don't answer that.
note to self : Caffeine PRN. thank you very much.
Posted by CoNnie at 11:37 PM 0 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Crazy talk
blast from the past
Friday, November 19, 2010
Posted by CoNnie at 8:43 AM 2 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Pictorial, When randomness attack
Hey Ho!
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Posted by CoNnie at 2:18 PM 1 Diagnosis Made
i got green.
Friday, November 12, 2010
One thing to be relieve about the O & G posting. I didn't get the infamous red ward. Phew that's a relieve. BUT the bad news is my consultant ward rounds will include quite a number of the strictest professors around and though the ward round will only be held 2 days only as oppose to everyday for red ward, this would mean longer rounds.
Standing from 7-12? Just thinking about it made my back feel sore. Hopefully all those physio session is not a waste of time.
Despite all these it would be a lie to say that i am not looking forward to be back to the ward for the new posting. This would be one of the few posting that you actually can have the hands on experience where people are forced to trust you to help them deliver their baby. Even though frankly speaking i am not one of those girls who will go ooh and aah in sight of a baby and definitely not looking forward watching one coming out from ones vagina but i certainly will give my best for this one.
Posted by CoNnie at 1:11 AM 3 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Crazy talk
yeah?
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
one more paper to go before this torture could end. Then I can finally enjoy my much needed 1 week holiday AND THEN return to hospital for 2 more month of eternal hell we call Obs & Gyn posting.
wee this is so much fun i kenot wait T____T
Posted by CoNnie at 3:56 PM 2 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Crazy talk, EXAM
swamp.
Friday, October 22, 2010
times like this make me wonder if this is even worth fighting for.
and to know the future would be thousand times more terrible than what i'm going through now didn't help.
i'm swamp!
Posted by CoNnie at 1:11 AM 4 Diagnosis Made
Labels: EXAM
the end of the it-don't-feel-like-a-posting posting
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
heh kinda long title for a short post but the major celebration here is that i survived the dark ages of internet free. So yay :)
And I just finish with my viva yesterday and I think the lecturer have some kind of psychic power cause she ask all the the only things that I know. Double yay!!
So that's an official wrap to this posting.
Posted by CoNnie at 3:30 PM 2 Diagnosis Made
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Wow this is crappy. I just realise that I have 1 month to go before the final.
Time to wipe away all that dust from my notes and enjoy a bottomless coffee AND sleepless nights.
Posted by CoNnie at 12:04 AM 2 Diagnosis Made
mimosa
Thursday, September 9, 2010
So, i finally grew a pair and cut me a bang up blunt bangs and dyed my hair back to black. no picture yet though but here is a random picture taken from my mother's garden.
oh, i just love holiday!
Posted by CoNnie at 11:37 AM 2 Diagnosis Made
Labels: When randomness attack
the hair issue
Saturday, September 4, 2010
i suddenly have this sudden urge to have bangs. oh god if i really do cut it and it looks bad on me i am so eff up but then again points for having the balls and stupidity.
Posted by CoNnie at 11:18 PM 3 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Crazy talk, When randomness attack
stagnant
These blog has been left stagnant way too long and i am so sorry for that. by now of course i figure that you guys had stop coming to my blog and miraculously hope (or not!ha) for an update which i couldn't really do due to the lack of wireless internet connection on the place that i was posted to. i feel that it is not convenient to bring my laptop all the way to the computer room and blog my heart out. but then again i have my blackberry on me so all the above is just a goddamn long excuse to sugarcoat the fact that i am just plain lazy to blog. so there you go folks.
so many things going on so fast i can't even think straight. blogging sadly had fallen way, way bottom on my things to do list :(
i still do went around and read all the other blogs that i've followed but i just really can't think of anything to blog about anymore. boo.
maybe i should try blog like a tidbit of what's happening around me to re-re-re-jump start (coz god knows how many times have i've felt like quitting) my passion for blogging.
Posted by CoNnie at 1:21 PM 0 Diagnosis Made
Labels: When randomness attack
Cooper's update.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Remember my little cub-like pup?
and apparently have a severe case of attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD).
I cant get enough of him.
Luckily for me, I will be home (again!) for Eid Ul Adha.
So Yay!
But we'll see.
Now we pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pack!!
Posted by CoNnie at 12:45 AM 5 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Pictorial, When randomness attack
YAY!
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Gonna be home for midterm holiday after all!
After all the rumor and misunderstanding have finally cleared up, I now can haz my holiday wtf. And I finally can go back home to see my Cooper. Who by the way had grown so big I wonder if he would even recognize me anymore cause the he was only 2 weeks old by the time I was forced to go back to this god forsaken place:( Oh and he just turned 3, er month that is yesterday!!
And it suddenly slipped my mind that how amazing it is for me to still feel this eager to go back home even though it's been 6 years since I left home for school (6 freaking years!!). You got to admit even by then you should have thought that I would kinda be, so I am going back home tomorrow and what's for dinner? and act like as if it is just like any other day but to me it is the total opposite, going back home is THE thing that I always look forward to most. It's like going for a vacation only the vacation is your own home, sleeping on your bed, eating your mum's cooking, 24 hours cable, unlimited internet and...ok I'm gonna stop right there. *Sigh*
This probably explained why I don't go out much while I'm home and the post-holiday/vacay weight gain wtf.
Can't wait to finish up this posting and just pack my bag and go back home! But first, there is still my case write up, long case and short case to be worry about.
FML.
Posted by CoNnie at 4:12 PM 3 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Happy me
Monday, July 12, 2010
Week 5,
Leg like jelly, brain like mush.
Yeah that pretty much sums up everything.
Posted by CoNnie at 4:41 PM 3 Diagnosis Made
Labels: BB, Crazy talk
Never Let Go.
Monday, July 5, 2010
I probably don’t have it in me to walk alone in this world.
Or I just forgotten how to.
I am so used to having you beside me, holding my hand through everything.
3years 3days.
To many more years of falling hopelessly in love with you.
Posted by CoNnie at 10:07 PM 1 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Connie the Hopeless Romantic
Hot Like Fire.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Posted by CoNnie at 10:01 PM 0 Diagnosis Made
Labels: When randomness attack
Be Thankful.
It took just one conversation with the less fortunate to pull you back down to the humble reality. To remind you that despite of everything, you are lucky compared to many.
To be alive and well, to be physically and mentally able, to have a roof and four wall to shelter you, to have a family that loves and support you, to have a comfort of a bed at night, to have food on your table, and to have clothes to wear.
We are lucky in a lot of way and yet we often took it all for granted and forgot to be thankful for it.
So Thank You.
Posted by CoNnie at 10:08 AM 0 Diagnosis Made
Labels: BB, Dear Diary
small victory.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
I, finally manage to solve a Sudoku puzzle.
An easy one but, solved it nonetheless. I. Freaking. Solve. It.
Ok ok for those people who can actually solved a crazy ass sudoku puzzle with their eyes close maybe this is not something to shout about but for me to manage to solve one is like discovering a new earth on an entirely different solar system.
Wtf even my analogy are getting more and more geeky now *pushes glasses up on nose*. And if that doesn't show how much of a geek I have become, might I once again point out that I am playing Sudoku to kill time.
Absurd.
Posted by CoNnie at 9:39 PM 3 Diagnosis Made
Labels: BB, Crazy talk
microblogging
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Can't blog as much as I used to. Well not until I figure out my internet dilemma.
Should I stick to broadband or wait for the soon-to-be upgraded streamyx?
I know it seems like a clear cut choice but the thing is my laptop can't access the house internet connection so I need to wait for the maintenance peeps to come and figure out why my laptop couldn't connect to the internet connection fml.
Blogging from my bb!!!!!
Ok,that's all for now my hands is going to cramp soon if I typed any longer.
Posted by CoNnie at 4:43 PM 4 Diagnosis Made
Labels: BB
First week of posting.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
.. a total fuzziness with a tinge of awesomeness in it.
Maybe I'm a geek as I think I kinda like this posting. I find it to be really, really interesting. And for once in my life I actually don't mind doing all the reading.
Now I just hope that I could talk, think, examine, act professional, and zone off whenever somebody (READ: profs, drs, nurses, patients, patient's family members, etc.) is in a scolding frenzy while pretending to nod in agreement all at one time proficiently. Heh.
Posted by CoNnie at 12:11 AM 2 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Super Connie
the sniffle
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Just got back from the compulsory motivational/initiation camp from Negeri Sembilan and somehow manage to catch the cold fml. I am suppose to be very tired but then again after 4 days of internet detox, the only thing that I could have think of is going online despite the fact that my broadband connection at this part of KL is as fast a snail finishing off a 42km marathon wtf.
Anyway, my first posting will be Internal medicine. Time for some heavy reading.
p/s: LOL just notice that the picture posted are totally irrelevant to this post. *sniffle, sniffle*
Posted by CoNnie at 6:43 PM 4 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Sick., When randomness attack
gloomy
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Posted by CoNnie at 9:00 AM 5 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Crazy talk, emo me
move it move it.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Ok so the waiting game is officially over and I am on the good side... I think but anyway WHOOPDEEDOO!! *freakybananadance*
So I am now in a middle of packing my life into boxes and suitcases cause I am moving to hell a new hostel. Bye-bye pretty-spacious-awesome views condo, squeaky bed and single room u have served me well for the past 2years I am gonna miss u *sobsob* Gonna move into a much smaller place and had to share it with two other people And a bunk bed FML. This teach me not to be ungrateful to the squeaky bed *smackhead*
Got a taste of the whole hospital setting before starting the real thing. Cant say it is the most wonderful feeling ever but here is the summary that I've made after my very short session with each of the discipline (the whole week was only an introduction and I only spent 2days with each of them),
1)The first class is on Ob&Gyn. The Good(G): uhm.. I could now differentiate a baby's head and butt while in the belly? The Bad(B): have the most vicious breed of lecturers ever known to mankind *sigh*, stretch marks? *sighx4575894098*
2)Surgery. (G): these breed of lecturers are much more calmer in nature, the jokes they made can make you laugh like bunch of hyenas but you must train self to stop on cue -_____-". Surgeon = The Jocks, well when they are not in scrub, no offence but I just cant seem to take them seriously when they're wearing scrub with those croc shoes. So far only Scrub(the tv shows) are able to make the scrub look acceptable. (B): not available for the moment.
3)Internal med. (G): Physician = The geeks. The nature of this breed of lecturers are unpredictable but the physician that was happen to take my group was super awesome so despite of the information overload after each sessions with her it is safe to say that I kinda like it here :) (B): Prepare to drown yourself in readings.
Note to self: invest in good shoes. I'm obviously not made to stand up more than 3hour straight *whinymode*
Posted by CoNnie at 9:21 PM 1 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Crazy talk, Review?
90s baby.
Friday, May 28, 2010
I was killing time watching funny videos on Youtube and suddenly stumbled upon The Powerpuff Girls video.
"sugar, spice, and everything nice..."
Gosh, how I absolutely love these bug-eyed girls *tears*.
Posted by CoNnie at 9:00 PM 1 Diagnosis Made
Labels: When randomness attack
it is time to play..
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Posted by CoNnie at 11:33 AM 4 Diagnosis Made
Labels: emo me
Cooper.
Friday, May 21, 2010
Hi everyone! wuwu..sorry for being MIA or more appropriately MIB (missing in blogging), wtf.
The fact is I am not at home now watching the puppy grows rapidly in front of my eyes is kinda eating me inside. Since I leave the home just one day after he open his eyes, deep down inside I fear that I would become this stranger to him when I come back home on the next holiday!! Hence, long skype-ing session with the family and a futile effort of trying to grab cooper's (oh, we decided to name him cooper! and god knows how long we to decide on that name. LOL) attention and he is soo cute! Sad :((
And as for why I have not been blogging as frequently as I wish I could is because I am kinda stress waiting for something. Waiting for a good thing to occur and waiting freaks me out. I truly hate it when I don't have the power to control the end result, how it would end and when the odds is 50-50. What if the just one minuscule force pushes the odd into the bad 50 and not to the good 50? What if there's not enough force at all to push the odd to the good 50? Maybe I'm just being neurotic maybe I'm just psyching myself out. Maybe.
But the thing is I've been on this situation before and the odd is pushed on the bad 50 and things was not pretty back then. I had a hard time accepting it but now that I finally got over with it am I be able to go through it again?
Ok, now for some random pictures to soften things out. LOL
Oh and Guess what I taken up a new hobby during the holiday. Fun stuff makes me feel like a little kid playing plasticine. Don't you just love art's and craft?
Posted by CoNnie at 10:03 AM 9 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Crazy talk, Dear Diary, EXAM
paw paw
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Its been eons in techno-years since I last updated this blog. Exam was long done for this semester, I have been home since last Thursday and currently have a highly flatulence pregnant dog sitting on my lap :) forever and even my pregnant dog had become a proud mummy now. Yes I am a lazy lazy blogger :( and right now I am wondering is there anyone left reading my blog *sigh*
Yeah right like that ever stops me before.
Anywayyyyy who here wanna see the new pup debut picture raise your hands like there's no tomorrow wtf.
But first...
The proud mommy ♥♥♥
the soon to be spoil pup :)) Ooh those tiny paw!!
You know the feeling that when you see something so cute you had to resist yourself from squeezing it? It is exactly what I felt every single time I watch this little beast wriggling it's way around his mommy. O.M.G cuteness overload.
Posted by CoNnie at 9:02 PM 7 Diagnosis Made
iheartthis.
Posted by CoNnie at 9:15 PM 3 Diagnosis Made
Thursday, March 25, 2010
maybe it doesn't matter. maybe i should just say fuck it, go to sleep and just leave everything right there and then. but i didn't. not because i don't want to, it's because i not-so-simply cant.
fuck this shit call exam.
Posted by CoNnie at 12:00 AM 4 Diagnosis Made
B&W part 1.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Posted by CoNnie at 8:44 PM 3 Diagnosis Made
0903XX
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Happy Freaking Birthday Big Sis!!
I wish for all the best thing for you.
Have a blast today at work and when are you going to update your blog? It's been toooooooooo long since you last update!!
And as a gift, I shall not mention your age here. *cheap*
Hahahahaha
I am kidding.
Remind me that I owe you 2 charms for your charm bracelet. I know I've kept forgetting about it. sowieberyberymuchowkey. I promise to remember it after you remind me ^^|||
No pictures cause I can't find the perfect one to describe you.
Much ♥,
Lil Sis.
Posted by CoNnie at 12:08 AM 4 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Crazy talk, Happy me
chapped lips
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Reapplying or not my lips still prone to chap.
I've used tons of lip-gloss, lip-balm, lipstick, lip-whatever,
but nothing work.
I believe it's one of my lifelong mission to find something that could last forever on my lips.
And does not taste/smell like cancer causing chemical toxic.
wtf.
Anyway, picture is from the old(?) days where I still have my curly long hair.
NAH!
Posted by CoNnie at 7:15 PM 5 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Pictorial, When randomness attack
I'll always be your little girl
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Posted by CoNnie at 8:41 PM 3 Diagnosis Made
3am
Monday, March 1, 2010
"Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
We know they won't win."
Posted by CoNnie at 3:00 AM
Labels: A letter to you
♥♥♥
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Posted by CoNnie at 7:56 PM 5 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Crazy talk, EXAM, When randomness attack
Love Lolita
Monday, February 22, 2010
Love is not that complicated. There's always a way to it.
Her blog is just mad awesome!
Because it is February.
And because I still have a bunch of pictures in my folder collecting dust.
Have you guys starting to feel fed up with my less-word-more-picture-posts yet?
There's no word vomit~ *big grin*
Ok. I should go and get busy with my PBL now.
Posted by CoNnie at 11:03 PM 5 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Connie the Hopeless Romantic, Pictorial, When randomness attack
Anne
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Posted by CoNnie at 11:43 PM 6 Diagnosis Made
there's no place like home.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Posted by CoNnie at 9:50 PM 5 Diagnosis Made
Labels: Pictorial