what i should be doing

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

i am suppose to be freaking out by now knowing that tomorrow i'll be having my short case exam where i'll be in a nerve wrecking, cold-sweat-inducing, heart-popping situation when pound by tons of questions that i-can-only-hope-i-could-answer-questions by the lecturer instead here i am sitting here in front of my laptop with books on my lap typing this post and trying hard to scoop out the perfect kiwi balls.


oh lady luck do be by my side tomorrow, pretty please?

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

final 3 weeks for O&G.

Gonna be busy, busy, busy.

but YAY!

wait maybe i should postpone the celebration AFTER the short case exam.

exam. UGH!

puffy eyes

Thursday, December 16, 2010

there is a reason why i should not watch any dog related movie. it's my soft spot.

watch Hachiko and halfway through it i was like T_________T nonstop and..... (i don't know if you know the story already but imma do this anyway just to be safe)

*****SPOILER ALERT******

Richard Gere haven't died yet.

*****SPOILER END*****

and at the beginning i was like so sure that i wouldn't cry but then Hachiko was so loyal and so cute and, and, and i suddenly miss my dogs at home too and cried wtf. MAJOR FAIL.

and now my eyes looks like buns O.O

funky story.

Monday, December 13, 2010

curious how the human mind works. you do so many things in a day and by the end of the day you just remember one thing vividly. One.


yes, armpit. well armpit smells actually. does anyone notice how the tutorial room smells bit funky lately? i think i commented about the room newly acquired musky smell a bit too loudly today when everyone in the room give me their most convincing T_____________T face before bursting into laughter.

seriously, nobody notice?

damn it. i think i'm losing my mind.

le sigh.

commercial break

Thursday, December 9, 2010

and go catch a laptop with your ass cheeks. wtf. Butt but seriously people talk about challenging your body.

Bet he walks funny for few days after pulling this stunts. LMAO.

my 24hours

you it when medical school took over your life when 22hours of your day spent either, at the ward, OT, class, teachings, studying or dreaming about studying. 1hour fulfilling normal human physiological needs and the other hour being to tired to function.

i'm typing out this post cause i am contemplating whether i should continue my reading or just screw it and go to sleep.

don't think i can't feel your T_______T face right about now.

one should never felt guilty when they choose sleeping over studying. that is just wrong.



my rock.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

i always love to go shopping during the festive season the mall decoration is always so amazing especially during christmas. went out planning to watch narnia today but damn ticket sold out like hot cakes so ended up shopping   (again, sigh i know T___T) instead.

the mall is covered with huge teddies and other doll thingy!!! 

spot the door.

i say take my picture this way, this way *snap* 
communication fail. 

seriously, whoever did the mall deco at midvalley did a splendid job the deco is so CUTE!! there's 6-7 foot teddy everywhere and they were soft, squishy and oh so huggable. everytime i saw one i just had to resist the urge to run towards it and just hug it. seriously. but i didn't coz i'm a freaking 20 something T_____T.

eh, but wait. what i'm-a-20-something-so-i-don't-go-and-run-towards-the-cute-huggable-teddy?

teddy why so high up?
look what the bf gave me.


and lots of 'em too. this is one of the many reason why i love u. less than 3 my man less than 3.


suffice to say i am a happy not so little girl :)

mentally unstable

Friday, December 3, 2010

do you ever had that moment in life that you just don't feel like talking. nothing at all? random innocent people who didn't sense your sudden mood swing did the most slightest things that happen to irritates you and like a balloon you blew up on them.

poor thing don't even know what's going on.

this is just a bad bad week i guess. probably the stress is just too overwhelming or maybe i'm just pms-ing. at this point i just can't differentiate them anymore as i am way pass my mental capability to think straight.

i'm just glad that it is finally weekend.

surviving on call

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

with the midwifes specifically.

Step 1:
read ahead and know your stuff prior assisting in the labour room. if you are thaaaatt stupid (quoting one of the midwife here) observed buttload of labour until you grow an extra set of vagina.
Step 2:
as if growing an extra set of genital is enough, you need to develop thick skin as well. being scolded, tease and humiliated in front of your fellow friends, housemans, registrars, patients and their kins by the midwifes should be like a second nature to you. midwifes yap, filter out the important points mute out the unnecessary details, look indifferent, occasionally nod and leave.
Step 3:
show no emotion *refer to step 2*. breaking down is a waste of energy. being on call is not just the matter of surviving the 12hours but also surviving the consecutive 8-5 the next day. besides, tears are like midwifes magnet. it increases the midwifes affinity towards you. translation=BAD. however if crying is inevitable, do it privately. 
Step 4:
learn to accept your mistake and the midwifes' mistake as yours as well. cause in their mind you're always wrong. being indifferent is the key here. besides, patient's safety is still the priority. Hence, pointing out the midwifes obvious mistake is necessary despite the risk of getting scolded. so, INDIFFERENT. 
I might have gone loopy from all the mental tortures and the physical exhaustion from this posting but call me crazy or a masochist to be exact, those *bleeping* midwifes is the ones that got me thinking if this is the profession that I wanted to do for the rest of my life and I never felt so sure of myself until last night.

But I probably wont pursue Obs n Gyn as my field though. Cause hey I might be a masochist but I'm not thaaaaattt stupid.

teenage dream.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

i love how they switch the song into a male perspective and made it as though it is the sweetest love story ever!

but i think everything sounds more romantic with a piano, no?

Boyce Avenue - Teenage Dream

lets just say this song will be on repeat for the rest of the night.

why everyday should be mother's day

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

On call was not so bad after all! Okay it is probably because after observing two delivery, normal and twin vaginal delivery I decided to went home and manage to sneak in 4hours of sleep before heading to ward again at 7am in an effort to conserve energy for this morning grand ward round that lasted almost 5hours ftw!!!!!11 *pat back for quick thinking*

Back to topic!

Whoever says that childbirth is a beautiful and magical moment is truly delusional. Cause it is not. You'll have difficulty in breathing due to your gigantic belly, you're in shitload of pain from the contraction, other than popping out a baby or two you'll pee, shit, ooze out blood and not to mention spreading your legs in front of 10 or so strangers who'll probably scream back at you when you scream in pain.

I must admit that after observing the twin delivery I was probably mentally scarred cause after the first baby was delivered I promptly texted the bf and tell him that if he decided to marry me, there will be some ground rule about twin. 2am in the morning. 

True story.

However for the sake of the continuity of human race, I am oblige to tell you that childbirth is not all that horrible. Imagine to finally able to put a face to the baby that kicked, moved and grew within your tummy for 9months. to touch, feel, hear your baby's cry and hold the baby on your arms for the first time and instinctively know that you'll do anything, anything for his/she well being. In that instance, your heart swells and all that pain you've just been through is worth it. 

I know this made me one of the delusional people. But to me those moments were the one that made childbirth sacred, beautiful and magical.

Thanks mom for bearing through hours of tremendous pain and raised me to the person that I am now. I promise to do everything in my will to make you proud.

I love you mom.


Saturday, November 20, 2010

will be going for my first on call tomorrow night and i am all nervous and excited over the whole thing. preparing a checklist of what to do during the whole 7pm to 7am.

is it crazy that i need to have on call and cover my assigned bed on a SUNDAY and not to mention i still have ward round at 8am the next morning, which goes on until forever noon AND still have to prepare another case for another round with the specialist at 2.30pm???!!!!!111

don't answer that.

note to self : Caffeine PRN. thank you very much.

blast from the past

Friday, November 19, 2010

no matter how perfect or imperfect your childhood are it is all pure tears, sweat, and blood that really brought you where you are now. Okay, maybe a little sprinkle of luck too.

Hey Ho!

Thursday, November 18, 2010

I pass my exam!

OK *clap* so less one problem to be worry about.
BUT I shouldn't get too excited over the whole deal I still need to pass this semester to get through this year.
and I have O&G and Surgery posting to worry about this semester.
*nervous nail biting*
but hey, one step at a time right?


i got green.

Friday, November 12, 2010

One thing to be relieve about the O & G posting. I didn't get the infamous red ward. Phew that's a relieve. BUT the bad news is my consultant ward rounds will include quite a number of the strictest professors around and though the ward round will only be held 2 days only as oppose to everyday for red ward, this would mean longer rounds.

Standing from 7-12? Just thinking about it made my back feel sore. Hopefully all those physio session is not a waste of time.

Despite all these it would be a lie to say that i am not looking forward to be back to the ward for the new posting. This would be one of the few posting that you actually can have the hands on experience where people are forced to trust you to help them deliver their baby. Even though  frankly speaking i am not one of those girls who will go ooh and aah in sight of a baby and definitely not looking forward watching one coming out from ones vagina but i certainly will give my best for this one.


Tuesday, November 2, 2010

one more paper to go before this torture could end. Then I can finally enjoy my much needed 1 week holiday AND THEN return to hospital for 2 more month of eternal hell we call Obs & Gyn posting.

wee this is so much fun i kenot wait T____T


Friday, October 22, 2010

times like this make me wonder if this is even worth fighting for.

and to know the future would be thousand times more terrible than what i'm going through now didn't help.

i'm swamp!

the end of the it-don't-feel-like-a-posting posting

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

heh kinda long title for a short post but the major celebration here is that i survived the dark ages of internet free. So yay :)

And I just finish with my viva yesterday and I think the lecturer have some kind of psychic power cause she ask all the the only things that I know. Double yay!!

So that's an official wrap to this posting.

Here's the but to this story, the end of this posting means it is time to prepare for the exam le sigh.


Turquoise HK with my turquoise cruzerblade that I won for typing a few words onto a picture that is my poster. Lucky lucky :)))

Picture was taken with my BB.


Friday, September 24, 2010

Feel all that you can feel.
sometimes it is healthier that way.
*emotional diarrhoea*

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Wow this is crappy. I just realise that I have 1 month to go before the final.

Time to wipe away all that dust from my notes and enjoy a bottomless coffee AND sleepless nights.


Thursday, September 9, 2010

So, i finally grew a pair and cut me a bang up blunt bangs and dyed my hair back to black. no picture yet though but here is a random picture taken from my mother's garden.

oh, i just love holiday!

the hair issue

Saturday, September 4, 2010

i suddenly have this sudden urge to have bangs. oh god if i really do cut it and it looks bad on me i am so eff up but then again points for having the balls and stupidity

and why do everybody must goes against it again? they made it even more tempting hurm. and what if it looks bad on me? i still can pin 'em up right? right. yes, i am as stubborn as a donkey.

now, lets just hope on that split second i grow a pair and just go for it. 

i've created a massive hoo-ha on my brain to cut hair that would grow back in few months. can i hear VAIN?


These blog has been left  stagnant way too long and i am so sorry for that. by now of course i figure that you guys had stop coming to my blog and miraculously hope (or not!ha) for an update which i couldn't really do due to the lack of wireless internet connection on the place that i was posted to. i feel that it is not convenient to bring my laptop all the way to the computer room and blog my heart out. but then again i have my blackberry on me so all the above is just a goddamn long excuse to sugarcoat the fact that i am just plain lazy to blog. so there you go folks.

so many things going on so fast i can't even think straight. blogging sadly had fallen way, way bottom on my things to do list :(

i still do went around and read all the other blogs that i've followed but i just really can't think of anything to blog about anymore. boo.

maybe i should try blog like a tidbit of what's happening around me to re-re-re-jump start (coz god knows how many times have i've felt like quitting) my passion for blogging.

Cooper's update.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Remember my little cub-like pup?

He. Is. So. FURRRYYY. Now!!
and apparently have a severe case of attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD). 
I cant get enough of him. 
Luckily for me, I will be home (again!) for Eid Ul Adha.
So Yay!
Gonna be away for Community Health posting this Wednesday for two months. Heard it'll be lots of fun.
But we'll see.
Now we pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pack!!


Saturday, July 24, 2010

Gonna be home for midterm holiday after all!

After all the rumor and misunderstanding have finally cleared up, I now can haz my holiday wtf. And I finally can go back home to see my Cooper. Who by the way had grown so big I wonder if he would even recognize me anymore cause the he was only 2 weeks old by the time I was forced to go back to this god forsaken place:( Oh and he just turned 3, er month that is yesterday!!

And it suddenly slipped my mind that how amazing it is for me to still feel this eager to go back home even though it's been 6 years since I left home for school (6 freaking years!!). You got to admit even by then you should have thought that I would kinda be, so I am going back home tomorrow and what's for dinner? and act like as if it is just like any other day but to me it is the total opposite, going back home is THE thing that I always look forward to most. It's like going for a vacation only the vacation is your own home, sleeping on your bed, eating your mum's cooking, 24 hours cable, unlimited internet and...ok I'm gonna stop right there. *Sigh*

This probably explained why I don't go out much while I'm home and the post-holiday/vacay weight gain wtf.

Can't wait to finish up this posting and just pack my bag and go back home! But first, there is still my case write up, long case and short case to be worry about.


Monday, July 12, 2010

Week 5,

Leg like jelly, brain like mush.

Yeah that pretty much sums up everything.

Never Let Go.

Monday, July 5, 2010

I probably don’t have it in me to walk alone in this world.
Or I just forgotten how to.
I am so used to having you beside me, holding my hand through everything.

3years 3days.

To many more years of falling hopelessly in love with you.

Hot Like Fire.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

The XX-Hot Like Fire (Aaliyah Cover)

Feast for the ears. The XX. LOVE!

Be Thankful.

It took just one conversation with the less fortunate to pull you back down to the humble reality. To remind you that despite of everything, you are lucky compared to many.

To be alive and well, to be physically and mentally able, to have a roof and four wall to shelter you, to have a family that loves and support you, to have a comfort of a bed at night, to have food on your table, and to have clothes to wear.

We are lucky in a lot of way and yet we often took it all for granted and forgot to be thankful for it.

So Thank You.

small victory.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

I, finally manage to solve a Sudoku puzzle.

An easy one but, solved it nonetheless. I. Freaking. Solve. It.

Ok ok for those people who can actually solved a crazy ass sudoku puzzle with their eyes close maybe this is not something to shout about but for me to manage to solve one is like discovering a new earth on an entirely different solar system.

Wtf even my analogy are getting more and more geeky now *pushes glasses up on nose*. And if that doesn't show how much of a geek I have become, might I once again point out that I am playing Sudoku to kill time.




Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Can't blog as much as I used to. Well not until I figure out my internet dilemma.

Should I stick to broadband or wait for the soon-to-be upgraded streamyx?

I know it seems like a clear cut choice but the thing is my laptop can't access the house internet connection so I need to wait for the maintenance peeps to come and figure out why my laptop couldn't connect to the internet connection fml.

Blogging from my bb!!!!!

Ok,that's all for now my hands is going to cramp soon if I typed any longer.

First week of posting.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

.. a total fuzziness with a tinge of awesomeness in it. 

Maybe I'm a geek as I think I kinda like this posting. I find it to be really, really interesting. And for once in my life I actually don't mind doing all the reading. 

Now I just hope that I could talk, think, examine, act professional, and zone off whenever somebody (READ: profs, drs, nurses, patients, patient's family members, etc.)  is in a scolding frenzy while pretending to nod in agreement all at one time proficiently. Heh.

the sniffle

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Just got back from the compulsory motivational/initiation camp from Negeri Sembilan and somehow manage to catch the cold fml. I am suppose to be very tired but then again after 4 days of internet detox, the only thing that I could have think of is going online despite the fact that my broadband connection at this part of KL is as fast a snail finishing off a 42km marathon wtf.

Anyway, my first posting will be Internal medicine. Time for some heavy reading.

p/s: LOL just notice that the picture posted are totally irrelevant to this post. *sniffle, sniffle*


Saturday, June 5, 2010

My principle when I pack: Stuff as much as you can in that itsy-bitsy boxes. 
Seriously, why do girls HAVE to have so many stuff anyway. *grumble grumble*

I've work my butt off for years to get myself away from this place, 
and now that I finally do surprisingly I am sad. 
Cant the whole building by some miracle move together with me?

move it move it.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Ok so the waiting game is officially over and I am on the good side... I think but anyway WHOOPDEEDOO!! *freakybananadance*

So I am now in a middle of packing my life into boxes and suitcases cause I am moving to hell a new hostel. Bye-bye pretty-spacious-awesome views condo, squeaky bed and single room u have served me well for the past 2years I am gonna miss u *sobsob* Gonna move into a much smaller place and had to share it with two other people And a bunk bed FML. This teach me not to be ungrateful to the squeaky bed *smackhead*


Got a taste of the whole hospital setting before starting the real thing. Cant say it is the most wonderful feeling ever but here is the summary that I've made after my very short session with each of the discipline (the whole week was only an introduction and I only spent 2days with each of them),

1)The first class is on Ob&Gyn. The Good(G): uhm.. I could now differentiate a baby's head and butt while in the belly? The Bad(B): have the most vicious breed of lecturers ever known to mankind *sigh*, stretch marks? *sighx4575894098*

2)Surgery. (G): these breed of lecturers are much more calmer in nature, the jokes they made can make you laugh like bunch of hyenas but you must train self to stop on cue -_____-". Surgeon = The Jocks, well when they are not in scrub, no offence but I just cant seem to take them seriously when they're wearing scrub with those croc shoes. So far only Scrub(the tv shows) are able to make the scrub look acceptable. (B): not available for the moment.

3)Internal med. (G): Physician = The geeks. The nature of this breed of lecturers are unpredictable but the physician that was happen to take my group was super awesome so despite of the information overload after each sessions with her it is safe to say that I kinda like it here :) (B): Prepare to drown yourself in readings.

Note to self: invest in good shoes. I'm obviously not made to stand up more than 3hour straight *whinymode*

90s baby.

Friday, May 28, 2010

I was killing time watching funny videos on Youtube and suddenly stumbled upon The Powerpuff Girls video.

"sugar, spice, and everything nice..."

Gosh, how I absolutely love these bug-eyed girls *tears*.

I guess growing up in the 90's the most memorable things to me is probably the cartoons. Back in the days you probably need a crowbar to pry me away from the tv  T_______T. err.. and I probably haven't change much now too *shame*

it is time to play..

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

the waiting game.

image is taken from here.


Friday, May 21, 2010

Hi everyone! wuwu..sorry for being MIA or more appropriately MIB (missing in blogging), wtf.

The fact is I am not at home now watching the puppy grows rapidly in front of my eyes is kinda eating me inside. Since I leave the home just one day after he open his eyes, deep down inside I fear that I would become this stranger to him when I come back home on the next holiday!! Hence, long skype-ing session with the family and a futile effort of trying to grab cooper's (oh, we decided to name him cooper! and god knows how long we to decide on that name. LOL) attention and he is soo cute! Sad :((

He looks more like a bear's cub than a pup here.

What cha' looking at. 

What lah make me miss him more only. This is self-torture*sigh*

And as for why I have not been blogging as frequently as I wish I could is because I am kinda stress waiting for something. Waiting for a good thing to occur and waiting freaks me out. I truly hate it when I don't have the power to control the end result, how it would end and when the odds is 50-50. What if the just one minuscule force pushes the odd into the bad 50 and not to the good 50? What if there's not enough force at all to push the odd to the good 50? Maybe I'm just being neurotic maybe I'm just psyching myself out. Maybe.

But the thing is I've been on this situation before and the odd is pushed on the bad 50 and things was not pretty back then. I had a hard time accepting it but now that I finally got over with it am I be able to go through it again?

 * * * * *

Ok, now for some random pictures to soften things out. LOL 

Taken from my mum's garden.
I love this picture :))

Oh and Guess what I taken up a new hobby during the holiday. Fun stuff makes me feel like a little kid playing plasticine. Don't you just love art's and craft?

Aren't they cute?

I didn't do all of them. I just did the flowers, the fortune cookies, the present box, the pink bow, the yellow bubble gums, the square pigs and one of the mushroom(half cos my sis help me with it too). And the rest of the bunch is by my awesome sis! haih that last part came out like vinegar. I kid, I KID! You are great.

Here's the keychain I made for the Boyfriend's lil sis.


paw paw

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Its been eons in techno-years since I last updated this blog. Exam was long done for this semester, I have been home since last Thursday and currently have a highly flatulence pregnant dog sitting on my lap :) forever and even my pregnant dog had become a proud mummy now. Yes I am a lazy lazy blogger :( and right now I am wondering is there anyone left reading my blog *sigh*

Yeah right like that ever stops me before.

Anywayyyyy who here wanna see the new pup debut picture raise your hands like there's no tomorrow wtf.

But first...

The proud mommy ♥♥♥

the soon to be spoil pup :)) Ooh those tiny paw!! 

You know the feeling that when you see something so cute you had to resist yourself from squeezing it? It is exactly what I felt every single time I watch this little beast wriggling it's way around his mommy. O.M.G cuteness overload.


Monday, April 5, 2010

photo from here.
I feel bad for not replying all your comments :( 

Thank you!!

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Romeo & Juliet-Clazziquai


photo from weheartit.com

This looks bad isn't it? I have butterflies in my stomach thinking about it.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

maybe it doesn't matter. maybe i should just say fuck it, go to sleep and just leave everything right there and then. but i didn't. not because i don't want to, it's because i not-so-simply cant.

fuck this shit call exam.

B&W part 1.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Smile for the camera!!


Ok, fine I was bored or just a bit over influenced by Mika. wtf.
Frankly, I don't feel like blogging these days. 
So I'm gonna give blogging a rest and just focusing on getting my brain liquefied my revision.
Back to a more wordy blog post after the exam.


Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Happy Freaking Birthday Big Sis!!

I wish for all the best thing for you.

Have a blast today at work and when are you going to update your blog? It's been toooooooooo long since you last update!!

And as a gift, I shall not mention your age here. *cheap*


I am kidding.

Remind me that I owe you 2 charms for your charm bracelet. I know I've kept forgetting about it. sowieberyberymuchowkey. I promise to remember it after you remind me ^^|||

No pictures cause I can't find the perfect one to describe you.

Much ,
Lil Sis.

chapped lips

Saturday, March 6, 2010

I'm the type of girl who 'eat' anything that is applied on my lips. 
Reapplying or not my lips still prone to chap. 
I've used tons of lip-gloss, lip-balm, lipstick, lip-whatever, 
but nothing work.
I believe it's one of my lifelong mission to find something that could last forever on my lips. 
And does not taste/smell like cancer causing chemical toxic. 

 Anyway, picture is from the old(?) days where I still have my curly long hair. 
I think I'm beginning to miss my long hair. 


I'll always be your little girl

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Happy Birthday Dad!!!


Monday, March 1, 2010

Trying not to describe you in past tense.
Trying not to forget you.
Trying not to miss you so much.
Trying not to be sad.

"Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
We know they won't win."

Trying to find that piece of childhood memories that we spend together.
Trying to make sense of this present.
Trying to fix all(almost) that was broken.
Trying to be happy. Just happy.


Thursday, February 25, 2010

There isn't much for me to update. The fast pace life I'm suppose to lead is going in snail pace. The medical student instinct within me kept on screaming that I need to start thinking about exam. So loud if it is a real scream I'll be deaf. 

Ok, you get what I mean.

I need motivation. Something that I clearly lack of. And this only happens before/during exam season why? *sigh* This is a serious problem. Maybe I'm broken. Oooorrr maybe It got something to do with the stack of notes that's piling up at the side of my bed. *sighx2*

This post had clearly shown the nerd within(Ok fine, maybe the not so within) me. And the fact that you guys manage to read through the whole post beyond a doubt makes you guys are the most awesome people ever ♥♥♥

*TITS-HUG* <---copyright of ms.inden ah. HAHAHAHA.
Don't bother to Google the meaning though it'll led you somewhere else O.o

And I am not drunk or stone while typing this post. In case you're wondering. I'm just blabbering nonsense. 

p/s: it is &;.hearts.; (minus the .) for the .

Love Lolita

Monday, February 22, 2010

Love is not that complicated. There's always a way to it.

Picture taken from Lolita.
Her blog is just mad awesome!



Because it is February.
And because I still have a bunch of pictures in my folder collecting dust.

Have you guys starting to feel fed up with my less-word-more-picture-posts yet?
There's no word vomit~ *big grin*

Ok. I should go and get busy with my PBL now.


Saturday, February 20, 2010

Packing my travel companion for tomorrow's long trip back to hell KL.

I purposely save it up for me to finish on this trip.

Ok scratch that. 

I've been too busy collecting angpao and finishing my assignment(surprise, surprise I did it!!) this holiday to get back to Anne Frank's diary. The book was a spontaneous buy. I don't know what possessed me to buy a little girl's diary but I heard about Anne Frank so many time it is enough to pique my curiosity. Besides the book was quite a bargain. LOL.

I read it half way through during the trip and it is a fun read. It made me feel like I'm a pubescent girl all over again. wtf.

I hate that this holiday has ended.

It is less than 2 month away from final exam.  
Back to work now. *whip*


I am not gonna sulk! 
Ok, bai.

there's no place like home.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Sometimes it is hard to believe that I grew up watching these view.
Makes me want to click my heels 3 times every time I feel homesick. 
I hope you'll love the pictures.

The famous mount Kinabalu.


Both of the pictures above are taken from the front veranda.

The elevated(?) fish pond in film grain. 
I like the result very much :)


View from the back during sunset.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

I wish you are here. Still. CNY is not the same without you. 
I thought this is easy. I guess I'm wrong.
Everybody misses you. 
I miss you kid.

if it were up to me

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Just few more hour then home I'll be! 

Even though I'm gonna spend the holiday with a few assignments under my belt I am still oh so excited! Cause I promise myself only to worry about them after the 2nd day of CNY *boo. I know 2nd seems to be too early and to be honest I don't even trust myself to have such will power to do so. T_____T

But there's always a first for everything. Thus, on this special occasion I'm gonna bury the cynic within me and for once believe that I have the will power to start doing my assignment after the 2nd day of CNY *determined*

BUTTT for now,

I can't wait to come home and see all the familiar faces. 


I'm gonna be.. Home!Home!Home! *excited wtf. 

P/S: for that someone (ehem you know who you are) that's having study week during this holiday my condolences to you :( Remember to take care of your health during this crucial week and GOOD LUCK!

P/P/S: and no fret I'm gonna help you celebrate extra hard on this holiday. hehehe.. 

Currently listening to: If it Were Up to Me-Rooney
A little power pop to kick start that Valentine's Day spirit.


Monday, February 8, 2010

Now is probably one of those time that I feel like wanna pull those few strands of hair left on this empty head of mine and went around the house naked just so that I have a tiniest feeling of being liberated from all this shit that I am in now. Maybe after all that I'm gonna have a cup of tea while watching Fringe to chill. 


WTF. Totally random and I am totally kidding.

Or am I?

Before you call for help and throw me into the asylum I just want you to know I might not have the time to the crazy things above due to the shitload amount of things that need my sanity now.


This post doesn't make any sense I know. This is just me word vomiting. Thank you for wasting your time reading this piece of shit.

Here's a picture of a my dog mocha to compensate all the madness above.

Picture is a bit blur cause she can't stay still and I'm using my hand phone camera to take this picture. But who care she's mad cute!!